There I was,

In the very depths;

I had hit, as they say,

Rock bottom.

 

It took so much time

To barely regain focus,

To prop myself up

On elbows, if not feet.

 

Miles below the surface,

I was surrounded by darkness.

The shadows hid horrors

Of past and future.

 

It took so much time

To slow down my breathing

And take a look around

Assessing my life.

 

I chose a jagged rock,

And took one step up.

The darkness was the same

Was a step really enough?

 

I curled up into myself

Losing all motivation.

It took so much time

To ignite a little fire.

 

With the flame of hope,

I took one step up.

Step after step I put.

Perhaps it was possible to reach out.

 

The flame burnt brighter

And then there was nothing.

For rocks had fallen suddenly

And I was back on the floor.

 

A rock had settled on my chest

The flame had flickered down to nothing.

It took so much time

To accept the fall again.

 

With the rock implanted in my heart

But the fire reignited,

I merged pain with hope

And took one step up, towards the sun.